Wizard of Oz

Here I am 21 years old and not living the life I really should be.

I feel like I am stuck in a black and white movie. Compare it too The Wizard of Oz. In the beginning on the movie while Dorothy is at her house it is a black and white picture (really representing the Great Depression). But that is how I feel currently. I feel stuck in a black and white picture unable to get out unless a tornado comes through and completely rips apart my life.

I feel like I am ready for a change, but when is it going to happen? I know I just need to let God have all control, I alone cannot change my life, for I can only do that with the help from my Lord, Jesus Christ. But for some reason Satan just keeps on pulling me back into that black and white screen, not wanting me to go to the color side of things. The prettier, happier side. I am just realizing today how encouraging our Christian circle can be. But I was reading a note from someone this morning of something that she has been struggling with. I saw the comments after the note and they were all so encouraging! I realized that this Christian circle I have been raised is just one of the best parts of my life! This is the colorful screen I am referring too.

Why am I not letting God change me? I keep on letting Satan entice me with things of the world that Christ forbids in the Bible. I keep on thinking that this is something I need to do on my own, but you know what, I cannot. I cannot change on my own. It is IMPOSSIBLE! But nothing is impossible with Christ.
While our "circle" can be encouraging, I know that it can also bring you down. I have a friend that is influenced very, very easily. I was realizing the other day, I am a terrible influence. I need to be one of the ones influencing her is the RIGHT way. Not the Worldly way.
Sometimes my life just seems to be a HUGE mess, in reality it's not THAT bad. But to me it is. I have been raised in a Christian home. I know what's wrong and what's right. My parents have shown me the right way to live and here I am not living that way. I need a change, and I can only do that through Christ.
I'm sure some of you might be feeling this same way, and I hope this note may have been sort of an encouragement to you. I hope you realize that your not alone in the daily struggle. But with Christ we can make it through and come out stronger in the end. I want to soon, be one the color side after the tornado comes.

Sometimes, I wish I could just click my heels 3 times and be changed and have my heart renewed.